Hello Again

Hello Blog. I have been neglecting you. I am now officially on my one week countdown until Kyle's graduation! Amazing that it's come so fast. His letters have been a wonderful godsend. I don't think I could have made it this far without them, and my best friend Sarah. So to highlight everything that has happened. I got my first phone call on Friday the 18th. What an emotional call! We were both bawling! It was very short but he informed me that we would be moving to....drum roll please....New Orleans! Wow, not what I was expecting, but I'll take it. After the following week on Saturday the 26th he was granted on-base liberty and I was able to talk to him for a good hour. It was sooo wonderful, aside from the phone cutting in and out! Hearing his voice and getting to have an actual conversation was just the pick me up I needed to get through this, and I think that goes for him as well. He got to speak with Aiden which I believe was the best part. & he still has absolutely no idea that I will be there at graduation! Ah, it's exciting! So now I'm just waiting for his off-base liberty this weekend and I should be able to talk to him all day :) I love my husband and I'm so very proud of his accomplishments. I'm beginning to realize how satisfied with my life I actually am at this point. Everything is going to be okay, the little things that go wrong no longer matter. 

I love you and miss you to death Kyle David Turcotte! I can't wait to begin this new adventure with you!

I am a Coat Guard Wife, it is not a job...it's an HONOR!

 We are missing you Daddy!

 Our baby girl supporting her dad and the rest of Romeo 184!

Easier Right Now

These past couple of days it seems like I'm getting better at handling this situation. Yes, Kyle is gone for 5 more weeks, but I'm starting to remember all of the reasons we made this decision. I'm so grateful he is there, even through all of the suffering he is going through I know it's worth it. There was a time when we weren't even sure they were going to let him enlist. Thank goodness he was able to. This time apart is a sacrifice I'm willing to make for the benefit of our family.  

Kyle is doing amazing. I am so proud of him! Yes, it's hard he says, but he pushes through it (which is so Kyle). He's proven his worth and has mad Squad Leader. He's only 20 years old! I am so proud! I hate that there is still 1 month and 2 days left without him, but it's getting easier. 

He's Amazing!

Kyle, 

  Kyle. Kyle this is so hard. I can barely breath right now. Having you so far away is torturous. And regretful! I regret that I didn't use the time I had to to tell you how sorry I am! I never meant to act the way I did during my pregnancy. But I can't blame it on hormones, I should have been strong enough to overcome that! I swear that will never happen again! God I hate that I can't tell you this in person! I know that you know this already. You've had faith that your wife would "return" again this whole time. Otherwise you wouldn't have stuck around. You are an amazing husband. You do everything that the typical man doesn't. You've sacrificed your life, your dreams all for me. You didn't have to take a pregnant woman into your heart. You didn't have to take that baby into your heart. But you did! You didn't care! "He's mine!" you said. "He was mine the minute I saw you again". The second you felt him kick you on the cheek while I slept you fell in love, with two people. Who does that?! I'm so sorry Kyle. A person like you doesn't deserve what I put you through the last 9 months. I've been so moody and angry, and frustrated over the stupidest things. We never even fought before all of this happened! We were perfect. I promise that we'll be perfect again! I don't just cry because your gone, I scream, I wail! "Why?! Why did I let him leave without saying this?" Yes I apologized for it but you deserve more than an apology. The worst part is you selflessly blamed yourself. How I could I let you think that it was your fault? I hate myslef Kyle. This is so HARD! Why am I so weak? I'm trying to be there for our children. Aiden is so lost and depressed without you. You are his rock as you are mine. I question if I am making things worse for him because when he's sad it makes me sad. I just grab him and cry. I cry with him in my arms and I'm lost in the empathy. I know you want me to be strong. That's all you asked of me before you left. Be strong and take care of our kids. I'm trying my love. I just want to see you. I'll be there for graduation. You don't know it but I'm coming. I'm going to be there for you!  I am so incredibly proud of you! I know you want this. I know you'll fight hard for us. You want this for your family. You gave up so much to pursue this, I know you will try harder, run faster, swim harder than almost everyone there because you want this! You're sacrificing dreams for this and you'll do anything for your kids. You'll do your best! I'm so proud.

I love you so much Kyle David Turcotte! You are everything to me! I love you! I miss you!

Kari

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My First Time

This is my first time ever blogging about anything. I guess I'll start with who I am.

My name is Kari Turcotte. I'm married to the most wonderful man in the world! His name is Kyle, and he's away at bootcamp for the U.S. Coast Guard. I couldn't be more proud! Kyle and I were married on June 11, 2010. We have two beautiful children, our son Aiden 18 months, and our daughter Ryan 1 month. I'm a stay at home mom and right now & I'm just waiting for my husband to come home!

I know this is incredibly short but it is 2 AM and I am fighting to stay awake. More about me tomorrow, but for now, goodnight!